I really wish I could write songs.

listening to my friend dave's songs at lunch, watching mr. garza at largo tonight, seeing "pay to play" tomorrow night, makes me really wish I could express myself in song.

I feel like i'll forever be a fan of music.

all it seems to take is some chords and some "diary lyrics" as mr. garza put it. but when you watch a person like jay-z and rick rubin work together, or someone like jon brion do their magic, you realize that they have magic. i don't have magic.

i'm still struggling with some form of creative expression. i haven't touched glue, stencils, stamps, in months. its sitting neatly, waiting to be picked up like a little puppy.

its not that I don't have ideas, i'm just afraid of sucking. i'm afraid of being unable to execute my ideas.

i hope my bass playing intentions stay on the top of my priority list. Thanks to some talented and influential friends, I think I will.

i cue'd up some jeff buckley to go to sleep to, and that stuff takes me back to my senior year in college, sitting in my nissan, on a rainy day.

anyways, I'm not going anywhere with this, and I actually wrote and deleted 3 posts in the last week or so..

i better end it here.

my hibernation is ending.  ¶ 4/07/2006 01:05:00 AM