AMY is right, if she tells me that I should do something about girl A, B, C, I'll just sit on my ass and do nothing. But, with a little elementary reverse psychology, she'll say, "you'll just fuck it up", and she'll end up lighting a fire under said fat ass and maybe do something about it.

of course, the debate of going back home to KC , or staying back in LA, going to chi-town or possibly even HERE is still ongoing, and most likely continue til the deadline.

so, there are jobs to find, places to live, friends to catch up with, possible dates to go on, and even plan a possible ROAD TRIP holds precedent.

do I still know what I am doing? of course not. but, it is a big step for me to be actually feeling OK with this. if this was my situation two years ago, i'd probably would have checked myself into some outpatient clinic for exhaustion and stress.

on top of that, there is clean laundry in the room that begs to be put away. and I might as well do some of that inevitable needed ironing that comes when I don't put my clothes away immediately.

I may also see Crash tonight. i'll let you know how it goes

btw, a little voice in my head is saying "everything will be all right"...
lets hope so my friends.  ¶ 5/12/2005 05:23:00 PM