walking through walls
Friday, May 27, 2005
i sure love my family! my step mom theresa, my sister erin, Jim-mi padre
¶ 5/27/2005 11:16:00 AM 0 comments 
meeting someone new is always fun. Since i haven't really been meeting anyone new lately, this is a good thing. lets call her... Girl A. Now, girl A is really cool. Its been a while (since I met Maggie) that i've met a girl who can make me laugh my ass off. she's dry and deadpan, and I absolutely am thrilled with knowing her. she has great taste in music, and has a perspective on things, that, while they do not totally match my own perspectives, there is a good fit going on.
what will happen do you ask? who knows? i'm happy to just be turning a new page. nuff said about that. we're hanging out tonight, and anything may happen.
i'm taking care of kari's doggies this weekend while she's out slumming it in a beautiful santa barbara campground. honestly, I don't see her out in the woods, but, she is from Indiana, so she can handle it.
I think I do this just to interact with her two dogs. I miss my own dog Shaq dearly and being able to play with these two makes me happy.
----insert profound statement on life/politics/god here--------------------------------
anyways, I need to get more shampoo and, I think Amy wouldn't mind if I start getting my own toothpaste for once.
next week, my great friend James comes into town wed through monday. so far on the agenda: 1)dresden to see marty and elaine perform 2) dodgers vs brewers 3) jon brion at Largo
4) chinatown and little tokyo. 5) venice beach and santa monica 6) peterson automotive museum 7) McCabes guitar shop 8) hang out in long beach with girl A 9) griffith park 10) finally, sitting on our asses.
i'm still looking for fun and interesting things to do..cheap!
bye ¶ 5/27/2005 10:52:00 AM 0 comments
what will happen do you ask? who knows? i'm happy to just be turning a new page. nuff said about that. we're hanging out tonight, and anything may happen.
i'm taking care of kari's doggies this weekend while she's out slumming it in a beautiful santa barbara campground. honestly, I don't see her out in the woods, but, she is from Indiana, so she can handle it.
I think I do this just to interact with her two dogs. I miss my own dog Shaq dearly and being able to play with these two makes me happy.
----insert profound statement on life/politics/god here--------------------------------
anyways, I need to get more shampoo and, I think Amy wouldn't mind if I start getting my own toothpaste for once.
next week, my great friend James comes into town wed through monday. so far on the agenda: 1)dresden to see marty and elaine perform 2) dodgers vs brewers 3) jon brion at Largo
4) chinatown and little tokyo. 5) venice beach and santa monica 6) peterson automotive museum 7) McCabes guitar shop 8) hang out in long beach with girl A 9) griffith park 10) finally, sitting on our asses.
i'm still looking for fun and interesting things to do..cheap!
bye ¶ 5/27/2005 10:52:00 AM 0 comments
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
even though you can't see
this is the third attempt to write something down that doesn't feel
1. contrived
2. false
3. lazy
i'll end it now ¶ 5/25/2005 01:28:00 PM 0 comments
this is the third attempt to write something down that doesn't feel
1. contrived
2. false
3. lazy
i'll end it now ¶ 5/25/2005 01:28:00 PM 0 comments
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
my blue corduroy jacket sits in a heap on a desk in my classroom. too cold in the morning without it,super hot in the afternoon.
barring any fucked up situations ( I can think of a few) I decided to stay at Markham! wow, you say, yeah..me too
but, im gonna be quiet about it until all is confirmed. but, i think have just extended my los angeles adventure by a year.
more details to follow.
the road trip is confirmed. july 3rd-10th give or take a couple of days. LA to KC..and all points in between.
word. ¶ 5/18/2005 01:01:00 PM 0 comments
barring any fucked up situations ( I can think of a few) I decided to stay at Markham! wow, you say, yeah..me too
but, im gonna be quiet about it until all is confirmed. but, i think have just extended my los angeles adventure by a year.
more details to follow.
the road trip is confirmed. july 3rd-10th give or take a couple of days. LA to KC..and all points in between.
word. ¶ 5/18/2005 01:01:00 PM 0 comments
Thursday, May 12, 2005
AMY is right, if she tells me that I should do something about girl A, B, C, I'll just sit on my ass and do nothing. But, with a little elementary reverse psychology, she'll say, "you'll just fuck it up", and she'll end up lighting a fire under said fat ass and maybe do something about it.
of course, the debate of going back home to KC , or staying back in LA, going to chi-town or possibly even HERE is still ongoing, and most likely continue til the deadline.
so, there are jobs to find, places to live, friends to catch up with, possible dates to go on, and even plan a possible ROAD TRIP holds precedent.
do I still know what I am doing? of course not. but, it is a big step for me to be actually feeling OK with this. if this was my situation two years ago, i'd probably would have checked myself into some outpatient clinic for exhaustion and stress.
on top of that, there is clean laundry in the room that begs to be put away. and I might as well do some of that inevitable needed ironing that comes when I don't put my clothes away immediately.
I may also see Crash tonight. i'll let you know how it goes
btw, a little voice in my head is saying "everything will be all right"...
lets hope so my friends. ¶ 5/12/2005 05:23:00 PM 0 comments
of course, the debate of going back home to KC , or staying back in LA, going to chi-town or possibly even HERE is still ongoing, and most likely continue til the deadline.
so, there are jobs to find, places to live, friends to catch up with, possible dates to go on, and even plan a possible ROAD TRIP holds precedent.
do I still know what I am doing? of course not. but, it is a big step for me to be actually feeling OK with this. if this was my situation two years ago, i'd probably would have checked myself into some outpatient clinic for exhaustion and stress.
on top of that, there is clean laundry in the room that begs to be put away. and I might as well do some of that inevitable needed ironing that comes when I don't put my clothes away immediately.
I may also see Crash tonight. i'll let you know how it goes
btw, a little voice in my head is saying "everything will be all right"...
lets hope so my friends. ¶ 5/12/2005 05:23:00 PM 0 comments
Monday, May 09, 2005
GRADUATION
the actual event, the pomp and circumstance, the pageantry of it all.
sucked.
seeing family and friends all together, less as a celebration of graduation, but more of a celebration of being together.
amazing.
oysters
champagne
new shirts
kind words
encouraging leads
stories of law school
car RX
pictures with family and friends
dinner with amy's parents
getting free coffee
quiet moments with my dad
getting to know carlos and greg
crepes with uncle steve, aunt sing, erin and ana
recognition from my father (he always had it)
all make for a fun weekend ¶ 5/09/2005 10:00:00 AM 0 comments
the actual event, the pomp and circumstance, the pageantry of it all.
sucked.
seeing family and friends all together, less as a celebration of graduation, but more of a celebration of being together.
amazing.
oysters
champagne
new shirts
kind words
encouraging leads
stories of law school
car RX
pictures with family and friends
dinner with amy's parents
getting free coffee
quiet moments with my dad
getting to know carlos and greg
crepes with uncle steve, aunt sing, erin and ana
recognition from my father (he always had it)
all make for a fun weekend ¶ 5/09/2005 10:00:00 AM 0 comments
Thursday, May 05, 2005
happy cinco de mayo mixtape
musically inclined - Abstract Rude & Tribe Unique
First in flight- Blackalicious and Gil Scott Heron
Shanty town- Desmond Dekker
you can get it if you really want - Jimmy Cliff
I got the sass- Dance Disaster Movement
Under Pressure- David Bowie & Queen
The cars she use to drive- Robyn Hitchcock
cigarettes and chocolate milk- Rufus Wainwright
eyesight to the blind- Sonny boy Williamson
do it all over again- spiritualized
hummingbird- Wilco
ferris wheel- Common
positive contact- del the funkee homosapien
cumbia de los muertos - Ozomatli
the pledge of resistance- Saul Williams ¶ 5/05/2005 08:36:00 AM 0 comments
musically inclined - Abstract Rude & Tribe Unique
First in flight- Blackalicious and Gil Scott Heron
Shanty town- Desmond Dekker
you can get it if you really want - Jimmy Cliff
I got the sass- Dance Disaster Movement
Under Pressure- David Bowie & Queen
The cars she use to drive- Robyn Hitchcock
cigarettes and chocolate milk- Rufus Wainwright
eyesight to the blind- Sonny boy Williamson
do it all over again- spiritualized
hummingbird- Wilco
ferris wheel- Common
positive contact- del the funkee homosapien
cumbia de los muertos - Ozomatli
the pledge of resistance- Saul Williams ¶ 5/05/2005 08:36:00 AM 0 comments
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
my summer girl, she was my world
he's got her now charmed her somehow
i know i'm not your type
i'll never be your type
as i'm sorting through some boxes for my next "move" to god knows where, I came upon an old mix cd I made freshman year of college. and one of the songs was the rentals "my summer girl"
suddenly, old images of alison, winter in KC, and milwaukees best beer came into my head.
its interesting, how one song can bring back many strange images.
i'm also bit amused by my choice of music on this cd.
sadly though, this cd brings me back where the idea of "future" was still abstract, where I still had more "promise". now that future is here,and I'm yet to cash in on my "promise"
each track on that cd seems like a piece of me, little promises, resolutions to myself.
some of these things, I have kept near to my heart. others I have ignored or forgotten. it hurts a bit, listening to the sweet violin and synth on track 6.
on track 8, hey mercedes play "stay 6". I remember how I though the hi-hats were saying "I think I can" as the guitar strums in the background and the vocals kick in "cars and planes are crashing in.....tonight one more look like that could set this mission in motion, cause i'm tired of living alone......"
I use to fantasize about performing this song live. not as the lead singer, but the bass player, with a couple of sweet backup vocals. ha!
holy shit! track 9. its the boo radleys singing "there she goes"..which was the original, much more superior version compared to that other version sung by that sixpence band.
lets randomly go to track 15
oh man, its elliot smith covering the beatles "because", too sad... I skip to track 20
holy shit, i forget who this band is, but I still know the chorus.. "but its too late baby, youre bending and youre breaking me, I'm not made of elastic......"
5 tracks later, and its over...
wow...what a trip down memory lane.
if my mix cd's can be an artifact, some sort of snapshot of my life, what will they tell me 10 years from now?
would the alex who made this mixtape back in 1999 like who he is in 2005? ¶ 5/03/2005 09:05:00 AM 0 comments
he's got her now charmed her somehow
i know i'm not your type
i'll never be your type
as i'm sorting through some boxes for my next "move" to god knows where, I came upon an old mix cd I made freshman year of college. and one of the songs was the rentals "my summer girl"
suddenly, old images of alison, winter in KC, and milwaukees best beer came into my head.
its interesting, how one song can bring back many strange images.
i'm also bit amused by my choice of music on this cd.
sadly though, this cd brings me back where the idea of "future" was still abstract, where I still had more "promise". now that future is here,and I'm yet to cash in on my "promise"
each track on that cd seems like a piece of me, little promises, resolutions to myself.
some of these things, I have kept near to my heart. others I have ignored or forgotten. it hurts a bit, listening to the sweet violin and synth on track 6.
on track 8, hey mercedes play "stay 6". I remember how I though the hi-hats were saying "I think I can" as the guitar strums in the background and the vocals kick in "cars and planes are crashing in.....tonight one more look like that could set this mission in motion, cause i'm tired of living alone......"
I use to fantasize about performing this song live. not as the lead singer, but the bass player, with a couple of sweet backup vocals. ha!
holy shit! track 9. its the boo radleys singing "there she goes"..which was the original, much more superior version compared to that other version sung by that sixpence band.
lets randomly go to track 15
oh man, its elliot smith covering the beatles "because", too sad... I skip to track 20
holy shit, i forget who this band is, but I still know the chorus.. "but its too late baby, youre bending and youre breaking me, I'm not made of elastic......"
5 tracks later, and its over...
wow...what a trip down memory lane.
if my mix cd's can be an artifact, some sort of snapshot of my life, what will they tell me 10 years from now?
would the alex who made this mixtape back in 1999 like who he is in 2005? ¶ 5/03/2005 09:05:00 AM 0 comments
