walking through walls
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
Ahh....tomorrow will be a day of fun Via Chicago
lets hope its not too cold as I enjoy the sights, sounds, and smells of one of my favorite cities.
¶ 12/30/2003 06:09:00 PM 0 comments
lets hope its not too cold as I enjoy the sights, sounds, and smells of one of my favorite cities.
¶ 12/30/2003 06:09:00 PM 0 comments
Monday, December 29, 2003
Ahh.... a few days til a new year...
whats your resolution?
Out here in the fields
I fight for my meals
I get my back into my living
I don't need to fight
To prove I'm right
I don't need to be forgiven
Don't cry
Don't raise your eye
It's only teenage wasteland
Sally, take my hand
Travel south cross land
Put out the fire
And don't look past my shoulder
The exodus is here
The happy ones are near
Let's get together
Before we get much older
Teenage wasteland
It's only teenage wasteland
Teenage wasteland
Oh, yeah
Teenage wasteland
They're all wasted!
baba o'riley
the who ¶ 12/29/2003 07:30:00 AM 0 comments
whats your resolution?
Out here in the fields
I fight for my meals
I get my back into my living
I don't need to fight
To prove I'm right
I don't need to be forgiven
Don't cry
Don't raise your eye
It's only teenage wasteland
Sally, take my hand
Travel south cross land
Put out the fire
And don't look past my shoulder
The exodus is here
The happy ones are near
Let's get together
Before we get much older
Teenage wasteland
It's only teenage wasteland
Teenage wasteland
Oh, yeah
Teenage wasteland
They're all wasted!
baba o'riley
the who ¶ 12/29/2003 07:30:00 AM 0 comments
Thursday, December 25, 2003
merry chrikwanakah
¶ 12/25/2003 10:33:00 AM 0 comments
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
Predicament
Coming home from a night out friends has proved to be fun and frustrating.
Fun, because I was able to hang out with my dear friends. Frustrating, because I was totally uncomfortable/bored with our surroundings at the bar.
I know I've talked about this before, how I don't like going to certain places (read:typical "frat" bar) but end up going to them. Girls don't talk to me, and I'm not really interested.
I told a friend that I feel more comfortable out in LA, which surprised my friend, as well as myself. maybe because of the racial dynamics I am less paranoid about girls not talking to me etc.. because I seem to be able to socialize alot better in LA even though it is very image conscious.
which leaves me to a predicament....although I miss KC, I know for a fact that this city has nothing for me. Outside my friends, family, and a select assortment of places in KC, I could care less about KC.
Now for LA, I have some friends, some family, amazing diversity and other things that make me like LA very much.
But, I don't love LA and of course LA and I have some issues.
Even though I feel more comfortable and I have a stronger sense of belonging to LA compared to KC, I still don't know if LA is the right place to be.
At one point, it is comforting that I can move to different places without much stress b/c I have no family commitments etc..
I guess I just hope to find my place one of these days...thats all...just a place where I can feel happy, comfortable and satisfied..
well..thats about it.... sorry about the rambling on...
¶ 12/23/2003 11:06:00 PM 0 comments
Coming home from a night out friends has proved to be fun and frustrating.
Fun, because I was able to hang out with my dear friends. Frustrating, because I was totally uncomfortable/bored with our surroundings at the bar.
I know I've talked about this before, how I don't like going to certain places (read:typical "frat" bar) but end up going to them. Girls don't talk to me, and I'm not really interested.
I told a friend that I feel more comfortable out in LA, which surprised my friend, as well as myself. maybe because of the racial dynamics I am less paranoid about girls not talking to me etc.. because I seem to be able to socialize alot better in LA even though it is very image conscious.
which leaves me to a predicament....although I miss KC, I know for a fact that this city has nothing for me. Outside my friends, family, and a select assortment of places in KC, I could care less about KC.
Now for LA, I have some friends, some family, amazing diversity and other things that make me like LA very much.
But, I don't love LA and of course LA and I have some issues.
Even though I feel more comfortable and I have a stronger sense of belonging to LA compared to KC, I still don't know if LA is the right place to be.
At one point, it is comforting that I can move to different places without much stress b/c I have no family commitments etc..
I guess I just hope to find my place one of these days...thats all...just a place where I can feel happy, comfortable and satisfied..
well..thats about it.... sorry about the rambling on...
¶ 12/23/2003 11:06:00 PM 0 comments
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Sunday, December 14, 2003
trying times.
the holidays have been rough on me. Hearing christmas carols, holiday shopping ads, trees and the such have made me really miss my friends and family.
even though I am surrounded by friends and family out here in LA, I miss everyone back in KC dearly.
I'm quite a bit more fortunate than many of my friends out here who do not have family in Los angeles. At least I can come home to family.so, I can't complain.
in other news, I think I'm starting to get use to the city, maybe even like it. at first, I was in a state of amazement, but wasn't sure if LA was the place for me. Now, I do actually enjoy parts of it, although many of the things that I hated in Missouri are even more represented out here in LA, but..you know...as long as I have friends that help me navigate this crazy place i'll be fine. but, i'm still not sure if LA is the place for me...only time will tell what the future has in store for me.
I was pleasantly surprised at a Teach for america holiday party last night. I almost turned around and went home, dreading it, me being socially akward at these things, but, to my surprise and enjoyment...I had a wonderful time. and I didn't just stick to the people I already see... I was able to talk to people that I haven't seen in months, and it wasn't too akward.
but, what i'm most excited for is that I"M COMING HOME!!!!
in less than 5 days,I'll be chilling in the cold weather town that is Kansas City. seeing my family and friends will be such a good time. seeing these people will be a sight for sore eyes.
I am a bit worried about the weather though, seems as if my blood has already thinned out from being in LA.
I just hope It isn't TOO cold for me. I don't want to get sick on my vacation. if you are in the area, please, contact me, I want to be able to see you all!
With my finals over (yep, still in school), and only a week of school left...honestly, its going to be hard to concentrate on teaching. no doubt my students will have trouble as well... but, I plan to get a bit of work done before the holidays... try to end the year on a slightly more upbeat note...
but..come friday at 12:30.... when the students leave and the teachers are left to their own devices, my mind will already be in Kansas city..
i'm coming home guys... ¶ 12/14/2003 09:23:00 PM 0 comments
the holidays have been rough on me. Hearing christmas carols, holiday shopping ads, trees and the such have made me really miss my friends and family.
even though I am surrounded by friends and family out here in LA, I miss everyone back in KC dearly.
I'm quite a bit more fortunate than many of my friends out here who do not have family in Los angeles. At least I can come home to family.so, I can't complain.
in other news, I think I'm starting to get use to the city, maybe even like it. at first, I was in a state of amazement, but wasn't sure if LA was the place for me. Now, I do actually enjoy parts of it, although many of the things that I hated in Missouri are even more represented out here in LA, but..you know...as long as I have friends that help me navigate this crazy place i'll be fine. but, i'm still not sure if LA is the place for me...only time will tell what the future has in store for me.
I was pleasantly surprised at a Teach for america holiday party last night. I almost turned around and went home, dreading it, me being socially akward at these things, but, to my surprise and enjoyment...I had a wonderful time. and I didn't just stick to the people I already see... I was able to talk to people that I haven't seen in months, and it wasn't too akward.
but, what i'm most excited for is that I"M COMING HOME!!!!
in less than 5 days,I'll be chilling in the cold weather town that is Kansas City. seeing my family and friends will be such a good time. seeing these people will be a sight for sore eyes.
I am a bit worried about the weather though, seems as if my blood has already thinned out from being in LA.
I just hope It isn't TOO cold for me. I don't want to get sick on my vacation. if you are in the area, please, contact me, I want to be able to see you all!
With my finals over (yep, still in school), and only a week of school left...honestly, its going to be hard to concentrate on teaching. no doubt my students will have trouble as well... but, I plan to get a bit of work done before the holidays... try to end the year on a slightly more upbeat note...
but..come friday at 12:30.... when the students leave and the teachers are left to their own devices, my mind will already be in Kansas city..
i'm coming home guys... ¶ 12/14/2003 09:23:00 PM 0 comments
Saturday, December 06, 2003
nothing important right now to say
school is rough, but i'm handling it, I think
instead of some whiny story
check out the song "ingrid bergman" by billy bragg and wilco from the mermaid avenue sessions
the woody guthrie foundation asked billy bragg and wilco to take unpublished woody lyrics and record them with original music..
this song is damn cool, even though I don't know much about ingrid bergman except she was a beautiful actress..
INGRID BERGMAN
Ingrid Bergman, Ingrid Bergman, let's go make a picture
On the island of Stromboli, Ingrid Bergman
Ingrid Bergman, you're so perty, you'd make any mountain quiver
You'd make fire fly from the crater, Ingrid Bergman
This old mountain it's been waiting
All its life for you to work it
For your hand to touch its hardrock, Ingrid Bergman, Ingrid Bergman
If you'll walk across my camera, I will flash the world your story,
I will pay you more than money, Ingrid Bergman
Not by pennies dimes nor quarters, but with happy sons and daughters,
And they'll sing around Stromboli, Ingrid Bergman
¶ 12/06/2003 07:54:00 AM 0 comments
school is rough, but i'm handling it, I think
instead of some whiny story
check out the song "ingrid bergman" by billy bragg and wilco from the mermaid avenue sessions
the woody guthrie foundation asked billy bragg and wilco to take unpublished woody lyrics and record them with original music..
this song is damn cool, even though I don't know much about ingrid bergman except she was a beautiful actress..
INGRID BERGMAN
Ingrid Bergman, Ingrid Bergman, let's go make a picture
On the island of Stromboli, Ingrid Bergman
Ingrid Bergman, you're so perty, you'd make any mountain quiver
You'd make fire fly from the crater, Ingrid Bergman
This old mountain it's been waiting
All its life for you to work it
For your hand to touch its hardrock, Ingrid Bergman, Ingrid Bergman
If you'll walk across my camera, I will flash the world your story,
I will pay you more than money, Ingrid Bergman
Not by pennies dimes nor quarters, but with happy sons and daughters,
And they'll sing around Stromboli, Ingrid Bergman
¶ 12/06/2003 07:54:00 AM 0 comments
