Sunday, August 03, 2003
i shaved the beard off, rather unceremoniously tonight, or this morning...
why? who knows. I have a tinge of regret for something as superficial as a beard, yet I don't care. I don't think the beard did me any good or harm, it was just there.
went to a chill get-together at a friend's house. talk about needed. I only felt somewhat akward in this social setting.
akwardness.... can't get over it. i'm starting all over again. its good, its bad, its me. you know how I am. mix high expectations and extreme self criticism, and you have me in a nutshell. its a crazy state to be in. there's the rub.
its a feeling to be totally overwhelmed and appreciative of the many friends I have made, and yet it is still incredibly lonely. I don't know how to explain, yet I know you all have felt this way.
I'm not really complaining or anything, I'm overall a happy guy.
man...just thinking about teaching makes me tired.. one of these days I'm going to write about teaching.
¶ 8/03/2003 02:04:00 AM
why? who knows. I have a tinge of regret for something as superficial as a beard, yet I don't care. I don't think the beard did me any good or harm, it was just there.
went to a chill get-together at a friend's house. talk about needed. I only felt somewhat akward in this social setting.
akwardness.... can't get over it. i'm starting all over again. its good, its bad, its me. you know how I am. mix high expectations and extreme self criticism, and you have me in a nutshell. its a crazy state to be in. there's the rub.
its a feeling to be totally overwhelmed and appreciative of the many friends I have made, and yet it is still incredibly lonely. I don't know how to explain, yet I know you all have felt this way.
I'm not really complaining or anything, I'm overall a happy guy.
man...just thinking about teaching makes me tired.. one of these days I'm going to write about teaching.
¶ 8/03/2003 02:04:00 AM
