well, haha, its time for alex to be humbled yet again..

said girl gave me the boot..
not surprised, although I should have gotten a clue..
I mean, I did/do like her.. but maybe more the idea of her?
who knows, I know now this is sounding like a very lame attempt to cut my losses and try to act like I'm not affected, but thats bullshit.. this does bother me in the way it would bother most people. I was rejected. And like most males, I'm gonna take it personally. But, no matter, lets hope things pass and I'll be back to happy al in no time.
the only thing i'm worried about is accidentally seeing her in public now. Of course i'm gonna be an adult, but I can't help not really wanting to "hang out" and be friends and all.. "i mean , I like hanging out and talking to you" I mean, c'mon , its like free Alex time.. i'm not an economics major, but maybe a bit selfish, but time spent when the reward for one is heavily bigger than fr the other.. just doesn't work out..
so, as she gets out of the car she adds this final "but you have to be the one who calls me"
fair enough. I am in no way trying to paint her as some evil bitch.. in fact i'm just gratefuly she did it in my face, although she could have done it much earlier than she did.
then again, I went out of town, came home late, and when we did meet up, I had a friend with me.. so it kept postponing her actions, which I now know were probably making her quite uncomfortable.. which I kind of feel bad for it.. but oh well.. all things must come to an end, much like this little "fling" just another blip on the radar screen, but oh, my what a fun blip..
whats next? school, AAA, jobs, graduation.. all fun fun fun  ¶ 4/07/2003 11:27:00 PM