uh oh.... I can feel it happening... its lurking in the back of my mind, I can feel it in my face, hear it in my demeanor...
dammit... I'm getting depressed... actually depressed+anti social+tired...
Why is this happening? Its not like I hate people, I just find myself really down.. it sucks.... even music, a big thing to me can't even bring a smile to my face... I'm afraid to listen to any slow stuff, I'm afraid i'll do something stupid... just kidding...
but really, I hate being bummed out... and its all my fault.. you see, I'm a lazy bastard.. all the time...you hear me whine and complain about not meeting girls.. so the best thing to do is go out and meet them right? of course. but my own stupid mind doesn't want to go out, even when the opportunity is presented me. Maybe its beyond my comfort zone, maybe im just pathetic, who knows. lets just hope this passes soon.
well, I am going to play with animals tomorrow, hopefully that might cheer me up. or maybe I should watch the South Park movie..who knows..
maybe all I need is some violent catharsis.. anyone care to join me?
well, maybe its not so bad after all.. as I'm writing this, i'm already starting to feel better. fear not, today will be a decent day.
as for all you ass clowns, stay healthy. there are too many sick motherfuckers out there today.. and i'm getting paranoid that I'm gonna get sick again..lets hope not..
and for all you KC kids, I may be coming home soon..
ta ta for now
alex  ¶ 2/21/2003 08:29:00 AM