holy shit! so much good music coming this coming month, and I don't know what to do about it!
lets see:
drums and tuba at mojos march 7th
clem snide and CUB COUNTRY!!!! mojo's march 17th
SOVIET w/ I Am the World Trade Center, Tora! Tora! Torrance! & This Bright Apocalypse march 17th at shattered
godspeed you! black emperor blue note march 17th~
idlewild and the french kicks mojos march 19th
jesus, Columbia is getting some good shit. now I need to choose who I want to see, and how much money I have.
man...
you guys should check some of these bands out, good fucking stuff.
thats all for now  ¶ 2/28/2003 07:15:00 AM 0 comments

  uh oh.... I can feel it happening... its lurking in the back of my mind, I can feel it in my face, hear it in my demeanor...
dammit... I'm getting depressed... actually depressed+anti social+tired...
Why is this happening? Its not like I hate people, I just find myself really down.. it sucks.... even music, a big thing to me can't even bring a smile to my face... I'm afraid to listen to any slow stuff, I'm afraid i'll do something stupid... just kidding...
but really, I hate being bummed out... and its all my fault.. you see, I'm a lazy bastard.. all the time...you hear me whine and complain about not meeting girls.. so the best thing to do is go out and meet them right? of course. but my own stupid mind doesn't want to go out, even when the opportunity is presented me. Maybe its beyond my comfort zone, maybe im just pathetic, who knows. lets just hope this passes soon.
well, I am going to play with animals tomorrow, hopefully that might cheer me up. or maybe I should watch the South Park movie..who knows..
maybe all I need is some violent catharsis.. anyone care to join me?
well, maybe its not so bad after all.. as I'm writing this, i'm already starting to feel better. fear not, today will be a decent day.
as for all you ass clowns, stay healthy. there are too many sick motherfuckers out there today.. and i'm getting paranoid that I'm gonna get sick again..lets hope not..
and for all you KC kids, I may be coming home soon..
ta ta for now
alex  ¶ 2/21/2003 08:29:00 AM 0 comments

  well..
the use of nicknames makes it easier to talk about people., nicknames are fun, a term of endearment...most of the time..
Eddy, come talk to me, I'll explain ms.diesel to you..

now, ms. diesel..
I'm quite sad that "confederacy" is boring you.. you should keep reading. aren't you the least bit entertained by the main character? does it kind of remind you of a certain someone? think hard..
"Teeth" was pretty good. It relied on mid 90's pop culture so , on one end it was amusing, but at the other end it felt dated.. but, if you can get away from that...the story itself is quirky to say the least and I probably should read it again..
next time i'm in town (which should be soon) we'll hang out, and I'll give you the book..

now, the whole girl thing... of course they're not perfect... but..some girls, they do have enough of that special something (you know personality, looks ,etc) that make it okay. plus, it's the whole "grass is greener " effect. if others have relationships, why can't I..and I'm betting people were wishing they were single..
like I said.. I don't really want a relationship...
I was talking to this girl the other day, and all we really want is booty... bootylicious booty... the kind you don't worry about, the kind you're not embarrased about.. most of the time... the kind. where no one's feelings are hurt

ahh yes
hmm... some songs of interest lately

"ugly girl" fleming and john
"its raining" quasi
"lost cause" beck
"I love" Tom T Hall
"sad songs and waltzes" willie nelson
"pharmacist" hot rod circuit

oh yeah, valentines day sucked...
not really, just a bunch of guys drinking booze and watching dazed and confused..and sitting in amazement at the amount of beautiful girls that were in the movie..

well, I have a test coming tomorrow (tuesday), so Jim and myself had better get studying if we are to pass this fucking class..
love, peace , and acne grease
alex  ¶ 2/17/2003 04:39:00 PM 0 comments

  Well, I've probably managed to let everyone give up on this thing. I terribly apologize for that, kind of.
See, with as much thats going on with my life and the outside world, I do not feel terribly compelled to put any thoughts down on paper.
Alas, I will start to try and do this again. So, all you faithful out there (mrs. diesel, you still there?) here's a short preview/review of my life

school, while being smaller in terms of hours taken, I belive the workload is similar, if not larger than my last few semesters.
extracurricular activities keeping me quite busy, as well as a broken refrigerator, video games, porno, and sleep.

the love life is the same as it ever was... and, luckily for me, I've snapped out of any depressed/pathetic feelings i've had lately.
there are a few girls in some classes that do spark my interest, but knowing my level of confidence and ability, talking to these girls will totally be a imaginary dream sequence... better than nothing, right?

my grandmother was hospitalized for pnuemonia, luckily shes allright. it is frightening though, when the grandmother dies.. you suddenly feel more alone...

my roommates and friends for the whoel are doing well, albeit just as equally pathetic as I am..

and I cut my hair.... its kind of long/shaggy.. bud definately not Cochise long..

well, thats all for now... time go get back to whatever it is I do best. procrastinate...
peace, and thanks for your patience  ¶ 2/12/2003 08:23:00 PM 0 comments