I swear, there are some sayings that have become so cliche' yet I can't help but believe and say them. Sitting at a funeral last night, not only was I emotionally fragile because of the death and those affected by it, I couldn't help but think about mom. You would think that after 5 years, I would handle funerals a bit better. Nope, not I , I become a bit wobbly and weak. Of course I try to stay strong for the others, but when I finally get some time to myself, its all downhill..
jesus guys, life is too fucking short. there, I said it.. and I really believe it. it really sucks that as humans, we are capable of doing great things, yet we either waste our time doing nothing or if we are really doing something we seem to never have enough time.
without getting all preachy, I think it would be awesome to be able to donate at least a little of our time helping others around us..
of course, its easier said than done and I am also guilty of talking too much but, I'll try to be better. I've been making this "to do " list in my head for quite some time now, some things are for my self, some for others.. It would be awesome to be able to look at this list when I'm old and grey and be able to say "I did all of this"
so, in the most cheesy, doogie howser way, I'm gonna make my (partial) list:

re-learn CPR, and be able to use it.
ask the most seemingly unobtainable girl out on a date.
habitat for humanity ( again)
run for breast cancer
run for HIV/AIDS
teach a kid to tie his shoes
teach someone to read
learn compassion
find girl
find love
marriage maybe?
kids
go to china/australia/africa/london/germany.. hell.. visit everywhere
learn fly fishing
learn tagalog
surf
bungee jump
sit on a beach and listen to the waves
read all the books that I always wanted to read
play drums in front of a crowd (in a band preferably)
well... it goes on..and i'm getting tired of writing...  ¶ 9/27/2002 02:21:00 PM