I swear, there are some sayings that have become so cliche' yet I can't help but believe and say them. Sitting at a funeral last night, not only was I emotionally fragile because of the death and those affected by it, I couldn't help but think about mom. You would think that after 5 years, I would handle funerals a bit better. Nope, not I , I become a bit wobbly and weak. Of course I try to stay strong for the others, but when I finally get some time to myself, its all downhill..
jesus guys, life is too fucking short. there, I said it.. and I really believe it. it really sucks that as humans, we are capable of doing great things, yet we either waste our time doing nothing or if we are really doing something we seem to never have enough time.
without getting all preachy, I think it would be awesome to be able to donate at least a little of our time helping others around us..
of course, its easier said than done and I am also guilty of talking too much but, I'll try to be better. I've been making this "to do " list in my head for quite some time now, some things are for my self, some for others.. It would be awesome to be able to look at this list when I'm old and grey and be able to say "I did all of this"
so, in the most cheesy, doogie howser way, I'm gonna make my (partial) list:

re-learn CPR, and be able to use it.
ask the most seemingly unobtainable girl out on a date.
habitat for humanity ( again)
run for breast cancer
run for HIV/AIDS
teach a kid to tie his shoes
teach someone to read
learn compassion
find girl
find love
marriage maybe?
kids
go to china/australia/africa/london/germany.. hell.. visit everywhere
learn fly fishing
learn tagalog
surf
bungee jump
sit on a beach and listen to the waves
read all the books that I always wanted to read
play drums in front of a crowd (in a band preferably)
well... it goes on..and i'm getting tired of writing...  ¶ 9/27/2002 02:21:00 PM 0 comments

  items of interest (to me)..

a certain ms."diesel" has come back into a few of us hometown boy's radar screen.
clarity, finally, after many pages of text
call from an old friend
2nd friday night in bed early.
invites to weddings
calls from dad
12 hours a day on campus
6 cups of coffee
free pizza dinners
bowling against koreans and chinese
$6 nyquil and dayquil
sweet rice cakes
made people laugh, more importantly, made myself laugh..
"she has a boyfriend" ..... damn!
8am Alpine towers saturday morning
lechon roast
kegger
potential for success/failure

ahh, I love college..  ¶ 9/20/2002 09:45:00 PM 0 comments

  "in a young man's mind/its a simple world/there's a little room for music and the rest is girls" the mooney suzuki

yeah, we (AAA Dodgers Dodgeball Team) got our ass spanked by the eventual 2nd place winner the Phi Kaps. There isn't much you can do when the whole team is a bunch of super huge jocks. Unsurprisingly, the MU baseball team won the dodgeball tourney. I mean, these guys throw and catch balls at high speeds.

My presentation went very well last night, I had minimal teacher interruption and covered all the bases that I needed to cover. The crowd didn't sleep and I wasn't nervous.

I am still behind on reading dammit. I need to catch up today.
later all.  ¶ 9/17/2002 07:46:00 AM 0 comments

  no more counter.
  ¶ 9/15/2002 11:58:00 PM 0 comments

  talk about creativity/website/overall genius envy.
I'll post some websites of people that you should be reading instead of mine. I've just come to realization that my "blog" is worthless, who actually reads this? I should give it up and just start looking at other webpages. sigh....

anyway... nothing much happened this weekend, I stayed in mostly, tried to study.
today was the dodgeball tourney, we got creamed. better luck next semester. I don't feel so bad now that I learned that the team that destroyed us ended up getting 2nd place.

presentation tomorrow, along with way too much reading I am still behind on. If I can just sit down and read everything this week, I should be fine. lets see how this week goes, I hope it goes well.

a few good shows coming up, Plea for peace featuring : the promise ring, the (international) noise conspiracy, lawrence arms , common rider etc..
THe Mooney Suzuki
drums and tuba
prob lots more music I will miss and kick my self for not going to. did I mention I slept through fugazi? I'll never forgive myself for that..

someone give me some horse blinders, If I could just ignore girls.. I might be more productive..
  ¶ 9/15/2002 10:51:00 PM 0 comments

  I'm almost to the point that I may have too much on my plate. Well, maybe not yet, but I honestly shouldn't tack on any more responsibilites or extracurricular activities. I probably should take inventory in all I do and try to streamline and stop doing stuff that isn't really worth my time. But, we'll see..this just could have been a real rough 2 weeks and it will all even out and all will be fine.

so..maybe no 319 reviews fpr now. i'm sure no one will notice, just keep looking for what mr chin and mr shin write. I don't pay attention too much, but maybe you will.

oh yeah, the get up kids.. it was a cool happenstance event. upon a whim mr.chin and my self decide to eat at the westport flea market (it is good, trust me) and lo and behold who is standing outside of the burger joint? none other than James Dewees (keyboards) and Brian Suptic (guitar) of the Get Up Kids! I was pretty excited and happy that I got to talk to some of the musicians that I just adore. say all you want on how they have gotten too big bla bla bla, they still write good music and are just as friendly and down to earth as they were years ago. so, big props to the get up kids, I can't wait for the new album.

80's night at shattered was fun. It was a strange mix of a crowd though, but very refreshing. There was not one visible sign of greek life there, and for that I was happy. nothing against greek life (i think) but I think the shattered crew and greek life can do well without eachother. The whole crowd was diverse with b-boys and girls dancing next to typical indie rock kids, next to goth-ish bahaus and cure fans, throw in a few 80's punks and a few rockabilly's... you have yourself a good time. I highly recommend it to anyone who doesn't have a problem with a non-traditional crowd and a love for 80's music. the old duran duran, pixies and smiths was excellent, but the real highlight for me was ac/dc's "shook me all night long" not very danceable, but with alcohol..anything is possible.

anyway, i should get some sleep... if I ever write something interesting i'll try to post it.
  ¶ 9/11/2002 11:29:00 PM 0 comments

  girls do have a way of making my day sometimes.

I am currently way too tired to be up and about alas, my duty calls and I must go forth into the fray. training diversity trainers is tiring.

oh yes, coming up.: entry about 80's night at shattered last night, and also a few weeks ago, I meet members of the Get Up kids!

I should also write my reviews for the new movie review site "bastards at 319 moviehouse" , yes very useless reviews but fun nonetheless.
click on the link to your right...  ¶ 9/08/2002 05:37:00 AM 0 comments

  ahh.. consumerism and capitalism has again bound me in its arms..

things to sell: some old punk cd's that I don't really listen to
some books to spread the knowledge ( well, maybe I should give the books away)
my labor

things to buy:
some books
giant robot stuff
Superflat books
the icarus line cd
Ego Trip's book of Rap Lists
the design book named "skin"

kitchen mandolin thing
new knives

things bought:
food processor
wood cutting board

money saved: quite a bit actually, as long as I deny myself certain things, money stays in my pocket... if i could only give up alcohol..
  ¶ 9/07/2002 07:11:00 PM 0 comments

  Finally! after 2 long weeks, I have (hopefully) constant internet access! Hopefully I will now be able to write regularly on this infernal site and maybe get my hits up. Only time will tell.

School is beginning to feel routine already, and for me , that is a good thing. I am pretty busy with extracurricular activities, but I still get all my stuff done thank god.
The first AAA meeting was held on wednesday and it went well. I don't want to get too optimistic about it, only time will tell if we do get new members etc.. but I am thankful for every person who showed up.

Time to go out and celebrate the weekend, see you all around  ¶ 9/06/2002 06:35:00 PM 0 comments