I hate my mini blinds. They do its job for the most part, it keeps the sun out of my face while im typing away on my computer, but there's one damn spot where the blinds are broken and it lets this stream of light right into my face. Thats how I feel about myself lately. I seem to have everything down, or at least on my way to getting everything down, but there is always one aspect that seems broken, a spot where all my insecurities all my problems shine through. Is it school? girls? the future? I can't tell, but the hole is big enough for me to notice. Are my goals and expectations too high? My dad said to wait for your time to come, not to worry about being charming and successful. I think my dad has a great idea, he waited for three years after mum's death and he found a great woman he can be happy with. I can only wish my dad the best and I hope for as happy of a life as his.
Just like I need new mini blinds, I need a new outlook on life. The sun might still leak, but this time I won't mind it.  ¶ 4/15/2002 06:33:00 AM