Monday, March 18, 2002
Its been a while my friends, its been a while.
I guess 3 out of 4 good midterms isn't bad. I just need to work harder and be able to say I did well on 4 out of 4 finals. I'm not too worried, but I need to work harder. That means, no more late night screwing around like right now. I need to organize my time better (after spring break of course).
I went home for the first time since Christmas. It was kind of strange, whenever I go back, something is different. When something is new, that always means that something is gone. I still can't believe my beloved childhood baseball field is gone. Its like that stupid madonna song. Its so damn true, I have so many memories of that field. I remember my mom and t-ball tournaments, I remember home run derbys with the neighborhood kids, I remember holding my first girlfriends hand at that field. Its just so sad, I don't have innocent times like that anymore. It is just impossible to do so. Now, everything I do has some sort of slant, some sort of agenda, no matter how much I try to avoid doing that, it happens. geez im off track.. ok. Well, whats in place of my baseball field? 1) goodyear tires 2) professional building 3) Sonic drive in. Its really pathetic, when the government is now saying that children need less indoor activity and more out door activity... they sell the field to a private developer who puts in a really unhealthy restaurant =(, life is too ironic.
I didn't realize how much I missed my dad. I could tell that although he spends alot of time in california, he still misses erin and myself. I kind of stopped worrying about him when he met his fiance, but he still needs us as much as we need him. It was so touching, I made him dinner saturday night, and I could tell he was enjoying it so much, in fact, for me as well, it was the first time in a long while that I didn't have dinner alone. I have been real lonely lately, even amongst friends.. being with my dad helped me out alot. when I left last night, I was just so glad he was on the phone with his fiance. It's still hard to take seeing my dad fade out in the background when I drive away from the house. I always wonder whether he is smiling or whatever, and I always get teary eyed. call me a pussy, but I think about stuff like that. But, in the end..we are both happy right now, it kind of sucks though.. we won't be able to share our birthday together. (oh yeah, for those who do not know, in some rather strange almost fiction like circumstance, my father and I have the same birthday, March 26) Even though we'll be on the west coast together,, he'll be in LA and i''ll be in Vegas. I'll at least drink one (or a few) for good ol pops and for mom.
St. Patricks day was a fun day.. the festivites started at 11 am and ended late night around 9.. it was pretty pathetic.. we couldn't leave KC until 10:30 or so to sober up.
but, im starting to get tired , i'll tell of my st.paddys adventures some other time.
take care,be cool and click on my buddies bloggers... they are definately more talented and interesting than I am..
bye ¶ 3/18/2002 09:24:00 PM
I guess 3 out of 4 good midterms isn't bad. I just need to work harder and be able to say I did well on 4 out of 4 finals. I'm not too worried, but I need to work harder. That means, no more late night screwing around like right now. I need to organize my time better (after spring break of course).
I went home for the first time since Christmas. It was kind of strange, whenever I go back, something is different. When something is new, that always means that something is gone. I still can't believe my beloved childhood baseball field is gone. Its like that stupid madonna song. Its so damn true, I have so many memories of that field. I remember my mom and t-ball tournaments, I remember home run derbys with the neighborhood kids, I remember holding my first girlfriends hand at that field. Its just so sad, I don't have innocent times like that anymore. It is just impossible to do so. Now, everything I do has some sort of slant, some sort of agenda, no matter how much I try to avoid doing that, it happens. geez im off track.. ok. Well, whats in place of my baseball field? 1) goodyear tires 2) professional building 3) Sonic drive in. Its really pathetic, when the government is now saying that children need less indoor activity and more out door activity... they sell the field to a private developer who puts in a really unhealthy restaurant =(, life is too ironic.
I didn't realize how much I missed my dad. I could tell that although he spends alot of time in california, he still misses erin and myself. I kind of stopped worrying about him when he met his fiance, but he still needs us as much as we need him. It was so touching, I made him dinner saturday night, and I could tell he was enjoying it so much, in fact, for me as well, it was the first time in a long while that I didn't have dinner alone. I have been real lonely lately, even amongst friends.. being with my dad helped me out alot. when I left last night, I was just so glad he was on the phone with his fiance. It's still hard to take seeing my dad fade out in the background when I drive away from the house. I always wonder whether he is smiling or whatever, and I always get teary eyed. call me a pussy, but I think about stuff like that. But, in the end..we are both happy right now, it kind of sucks though.. we won't be able to share our birthday together. (oh yeah, for those who do not know, in some rather strange almost fiction like circumstance, my father and I have the same birthday, March 26) Even though we'll be on the west coast together,, he'll be in LA and i''ll be in Vegas. I'll at least drink one (or a few) for good ol pops and for mom.
St. Patricks day was a fun day.. the festivites started at 11 am and ended late night around 9.. it was pretty pathetic.. we couldn't leave KC until 10:30 or so to sober up.
but, im starting to get tired , i'll tell of my st.paddys adventures some other time.
take care,be cool and click on my buddies bloggers... they are definately more talented and interesting than I am..
bye ¶ 3/18/2002 09:24:00 PM
