back in the saddle again out where a friend is a friend... where the longhorn cattle feed on the lonesome gypsum weed, back in the saddle agaiiinnn
riding the range once more, toting my old .44, when you sleep out every night and the only law is right, back in the saddle again..

yes my friends.. im back home! and i already miss LA.. back to being lonely and working and reading all day... its not that bad actually..
more blog later..
  ¶ 12/28/2001 01:08:00 AM 0 comments

  who broke into my shit and changed my password? thats not cool guys

anyways... Merry Christmas/kwanza/chaunakah (sp?) everyone or just happy holidays..

what a crazy, fun break so far....... but, I am too tired to write about it just yet.. just wanted to give all who read this a little update..
who is reading this anyway? click on my email on the left hand side and drop me a note
well, take care alll.......... and about that password...  ¶ 12/25/2001 10:12:00 PM 0 comments

  after just a few days, I am here in sunny california..
nice cool weather, 60 degrees, palm trees, and christmas lights.
i can get use to this..
my schedule is slowly getting filled up with fun awesome things to do
disney land, california adventure on friday
The Who's Tommy, rock opera on saturday!!!
japan town, giant robot, USC, UCLA, Loyola and other law/graduate schools tour..
christmas eve dinner and mass, christmas day lunch
random shopping.... lounging around
i love california.
oh yeah, went to ontario california today, smelled like shit, and saw a ton of azyn racer rice boys... funny shit..
well, off to enjoy this break... take care all..  ¶ 12/18/2001 08:34:00 PM 0 comments

  Well my friends, here I am tired, hungover, and a bit cold. I have survived a night/morning of imbibing alcohol and have come out the champ. More importantly, I have ended this semester with a good score card. Its been a great journey. I am ready to pack my bags into my car and traverse into the great road that is I-70 and head back to Kansas City. To those who are staying in Columbia, have fun, to those traversing greater distances than I, I wish you good luck plus a fun break.
I plan to read 5 books this break, it shouldn't be that hard, since all I plan to do is work. I'll have plenty of time to relax and read.
my book list
1) tripmaster monkey, by maxine hong kingston
2)a confederacy of dunces, john kennedy o'toole
3) a larger memory, ron takaki
4) slaughterhouse five, kurt vonnegut
5)lake wobegon days, garrison kellor

hopefully this will provide me hours of literary enjoyment, and a temporary escape from this often strange cruel world.

to all those having parties, remember bulk liquor is cheaper, go to Costco or sams, and always save some good shit for yourself.

funny moment #1 : Jim James and I were at blockbuster, my friend saw a movie called "Trois" you know. like menage a trois but he pronounced it "troyce" funny shit,
and
funny moment #2: my attempt at humor and social commentary turned awry when we were browsing the parental advisory movies. since columbia is a very backwards racist town, I made the comment that probably every movie with a black person had parental guidance.. unluckily, my humor did not get noticed and i surely made a fool of myself in front of the little black girl behind me.. i apologize little girl, i wasn't attacking you.
don't drive home drunk, no matter how good you think you feel... its not right, i feel extremely stupid and guilty for every time I have done it
allright folks, my hands getting tired, and so is my mind
i leave you a quote about girls from a catcher in the rye
''I was about half in love with her by the time we sat down. That's the thing about girls. Every time they do something pretty, even if they're not much to look at, or even if they're sort of stupid, you fall half in love with them, and then you never know where the hell you are. ''
think about it, thats me, and it might be you... doing that is not necessarily a bad thing, just kind of funny.. there are a lot of loveable girls out there, just find me one that loves me back.. hahhahah
take care all
alex  ¶ 12/15/2001 07:43:00 AM 0 comments

  uhhggg..
no one at this age needs to be up this early because they HAVE to.
yes folks, alex is taking his last final in about one hour and 15 minutes..
so, wish me luck all....
i will try to blog a bit over the break, no guarantees though..
so..once again.. as I have wished you all a safe break... also have a fun break too
call my cell, email me, IM me....whatever..
"i value the friend who finds time, I cherish the friend who doesn't consult his calendar" robert brault  ¶ 12/14/2001 04:47:00 AM 0 comments

  i have just bore witness to the smallest crowd at the Berg ever, for me at least.
tom, minna, drew and I.. thats it..
i think everyone went to the casinos tonight.. oh well, the small company was good company, so I have no complaints.
i looked a little at my black history, i think I will do fine.. i just need to go over it a few more times tomorrow before the test.
wish me luck
after tomorrow, just one final and turn my paper in!
then party hard for a while..
take care all..
  ¶ 12/13/2001 12:32:00 AM 0 comments

  Estrada trial suspended, to resume in January

jeez, you think politics in the US are messed up? back in the homeland, sadly, things are much worse  ¶ 12/12/2001 07:23:00 PM 0 comments

  BASS GUITAR


ok, I lied, besides happiness etc, a spiffy bass guitar would be nice. although I love gibsons, they are just not versatile, and versatility is key.. so, maybe a spector..?
kind of out of my price range, but hey, thats what installment buying is for right?
  ¶ 12/12/2001 07:19:00 PM 0 comments

  Today's weather Weather Report
(cold and rainy) is not my favorite of all forms of precipitation, but i'm not complaining. Once in a while, i'd like to think that the rain is washing us all of our worries, sins, etc...

i just got back from a review session, and, well, I am not as scared as I once was. I understood most all of the material presented. as long as the test is similar to the review, my friends, I believe I can pull a 3.5 off this semester..
how'd you like that dad? my super christmas present to you..

my dad, he's a great guy. one of those guys who has everything.. so , its's hard to shop for him , like me though, he gets interested in many things, and he's becoming a goddamn wine snob.. i fear the day he smells the cork or watches for the "legs" of a glass of wine,
in order to combat this, I bought him a book by the wine brats, these guys are very cool, non snobby, anti-WASP (hehe) wine people, they demistify wine and stuff, so that book will be good for my dad.
for my sister, who also is somewhat obsessed with the music of Ben Folds Five, i bought her the new DVD, of their complete sessions at West 54th, i have a feeling I wil be borrowing that DVD often..

what do i want for christmas?
not much, if I work hard enough, i can get the things my self.
I guess I want a happy christmas, fun with friends and family, good health etc..
hey, a date once in a while would be nice, and If that girl turns out to be a really cool girl...well, more power to me..
New years resolution? haven't thought of that yet, in fact, i really don't believe in a resolution.. Life does not operate in increments of 365 days, time is just another example of humans trying to control nature.. its not gonna work..
for me, If I can live a good life, have fun, and make a difference, thats all the resolution I need.. hopefully
well, although I just got done studying, it won't hurt to study some more..
  ¶ 12/12/2001 07:15:00 PM 0 comments

  ok.. after many more changes, and sweating because I don't know jack shit about HTML...
the new new look is her, and again I am not sure how long this will stay. it might be here for a while, but, i might change it again
got some stuff I need to get done today.. gotta finish studying for black studies, study for math, and finish my paper.. i can do it.. i believe in myself
my sister is already done with finals! damn her, what it was to be a freshman,..... ahhh... well, i'll be going home saturday. no big deal..  ¶ 12/12/2001 08:46:00 AM 0 comments

  do you like the changes? i haven't sold my self on them yet, more changes may come. my counter is here to stay though..
studying has left me tired and numb, but the show must go on.. only a few more days till christmas..

i've been thinking alot about christmas, which leads to my mom, i miss her so much..
i remember some things distinctly
her sweet sticky rolls, her black and white flannel shirt she wore when it was cold, her sinatra christmas music, the filipino food that never got boring, her calimansi tree, the photo albums she so diligently tried to keep and update and how they are just collecting dust now..
her astrud gilberto cd ( i listen to it all the time now)
her perfume, they way she looked when she was mad, the way she looked when she was happy, the time she took me shopping so I wouldn't have to wear my thug clothes anymore... her nissan..
so many things I remember her by...
the only tears I shed over her on feb 23rd.. the way she looked so beautiful just laying there...
its gonna be the 4th Christmas without her, and still i feel this empty space, this space i tried to fill with other things (drugs, alcohol, girls)
and how that hole never got filled... nothing will ever fill it up like mom did, but hopefully, that girl will come around, and i won't depend on her to fill my emptiness, but hopefully, by helping the mptiness in her heart,, mine will be filled as well..
i write this, tired, and sad... i dont know why... but, I can't cry anymore because, I feel to vulnerable when I cry..
one of these days, that emptiness will be filled, not like before, but filled nonetheless  ¶ 12/11/2001 10:24:00 PM 0 comments

  changed the font around a bit.. still experimenting  ¶ 12/11/2001 01:59:00 PM 0 comments

  big props to my roomie DK for hooking me up with some HTML goodness.
just had my first final... did pretty well if I may say so. came home tired and numb.
took a nap, cleaned my snare drum, watched some TV, and Im gonna go back to the library to hit the books some more..
more blog later  ¶ 12/11/2001 01:38:00 PM 0 comments

  its amazing what one can do in a day. or as ella fitzgerald,and countless others have sung "what a difference a day makes...24 little hours.."
i studied some, had a little fun, made some budget gourmet food, and i will study a bit more before I go to sleep.
my first final is tomorrow at 8am! kind of sucks, but, i have done pretty well in this class, so I shouldn't be too stressed. i just need to go over some stuff again..

if it doesn't feel right, it wouldn't be such a wonderful sight/ its ok with me, allright with you/ i will take you home with me..
every kiss/every time/every corner/every place/every time/every corner
we can stop and sit for a while/ just to talk, baby/now im satisfied with things that i've seen/since you took that ride with me
we can take the longest road/neverending sleep/we can take a polaroid/can be happy

man, my mouse is pissing me off.. time to replace the old bastard.. , gosh.. the mouse is barely 1.5 years old.... so much for modern technology
better living through technology,,,, if you have the money to fix it..  ¶ 12/10/2001 09:24:00 PM 0 comments

  i think its time for a new look. i do this to combat boredom.   ¶ 12/10/2001 09:16:00 PM 0 comments

  great song lyrics
ozma -baseball
think sad, soft melody with guitar, then distorted hyper chord in between verses while refrain is being sung.. wow, great crafty pop songs..


when i feel the morning grass i let down my guard
because love comes from the dirt in my own backyard

everytime i think i've finished being young
i catch myself having fun
but the moment passes as the sun moves on
so i turn myself back to you

on a diamond in the rough i spent my better years
i still see her in the crowd with diamonds in her ears
and it's depressing that i can't forget the tune the organist played
la da da da da da da, la da da da da da da...

everytime i think i've finished being young
i catch myself having fun
but the moment passes as the son moves on
so i turn myself back to you

is our season over?
no four leaf clover
i feel it's getting colder
now that it's late fall

but can you still remember?
april to november
you and i were members
of the best team in baseball

so we play our games
i've got a girlfriend
you've found a new guy
but it's not the same

and so i drive
straight up i-5
to let you know i'm still alive

  ¶ 12/10/2001 09:09:00 AM 0 comments

  listening to the North mississippi all stars again. man, their CD shake hands with shorty is great. old blues music rediscovered and somewhat re interpreted. think, r.l burnside, meets black crowes, meets heavy mullet guitar riffs.. great shit
i need to study again, i studied all weekend, and im proud of myself. but , in studying there is no pride, you must keep doing it over and over, till you get it!
oh yeah, a new north mississippi all stars cd came out, phantom 51. this time all original music.. i need to get it
well, i hope I do well on finals., and I wish good luck to all who are also taking them  ¶ 12/10/2001 08:59:00 AM 0 comments

  my my my, Oceans 11 is quite a good flick. great, although re-hashed soundtrack by funk producer extrordinaire David Holmes, no, not the mtv bastard, but the crazy irish dj kid, who's finely crafted series of beats and horns and hammond organs just wows me every time.
great cast, great story, julia roberts was beautiful as well. andy garcia did look a bit like pacino's scarface if you ask me, but hey, thats not exactly a bad thing
i highly recommend this flick, great subtle dialogue, great editing, great color scheme, and they can dress these people like no other, christmas list, new suit, thats all i have to say..
take care yall
time to ready myself for another day of learning, loving, and reminiscing..  ¶ 12/08/2001 10:58:00 PM 0 comments

  ahh, finally over, classes that is, sun shining, smoking tea.. just kidding
but, yeah, a night to relax, then, go into full flip mode study, i have to do this, or else I won't be able to relax all break.. so, if i'm not around, you should find me somewhere in the library, hopefully studying, studying hard at that..
so, take care my friends, if I don't see you soon, I wish you all a great and happy and safe break, and if you're around the KC area, im gonna have a bitching new years party..so, hit me up,, Alex5642 on AIM and let me know if you wanna party
and, so, into the dark night, dressed to the nines, i go, with hopes for something other than this, i will go party, with best intentions of behavior left at the door, this time, tonight will be my time..
so, most likely, I WON"T get laid, or get a number, and I will probably come back and bitch tonight on this sacred blogger
take care
your friend
alex  ¶ 12/07/2001 07:47:00 PM 0 comments

  Shit! Im bored and I don't want to write my paper..
so..in order to expell some feelings and get me to write... im gonna write some impromptu instant poetry.. im just gonnna type whatever
so here it goes:

thick, heavy, not healthy/sick, grey, drab/ tick, tock, it is the enemy/
scar me, make it deep, cut my skin, bleed, bleed bleed/ sick of the game, that I play on my self/ SHE, with power over me, She, laughs when I bleed/ conversation, uncomfortable finding words to say/ continuance of conversation was the plan that day/ stupidity, every statement echos/ stuck on my mind,can't let go/ why is/ why not/ how come?/// love sucks/ even when i dont/cant/want to love / not in love/want to be in love/ disgusted with the notion of love/ try to find the middle, like th Jimmy eat world song/ one more mismatched relationship, i'm gone..

whew... made no sense huh? i sure don't have a clue what I wrote. i probably could have gotten better sentence cohesion from that magnetic poetry game... hahha.... now, I don't want to write CRAP, so I will now finish my paper.... the paper, should be quality..
take care motherfucka's!!!!!  ¶ 12/06/2001 06:58:00 PM 0 comments

  ahhh....what can I not say about one of the best groups out there? not just in hip hop, but in all forms of music... J5 is just fucking incredible.

i coul've started weeping like a fucking girl when I met Akil and chali 2na, i mean, talk about hero worship....
and, then meeting 1/2 of the incredible DJ duo Nu mark? shit, man, i couldve called my day quits and happy by just meeting those two
but, they had an incredible fucking show!
i enjoyed this much better than last time, simply because my love for J5 has increased three-fold since the word of mouth tour...
everything was tight, the vocals, the dj's , the crowd was the best too, you could just see that J5 was vibing off of us heavily, i mean, its a good thing when the whole crowd is singing along with ya right?
note to self, no matter how much fun im having, beat up on the bastard newbie fans who lift weights all day and get in my way just to impress his girl, i mean, i could have a black eye or worse now, but, nothing should get in my way when good music is concerned.
i can add another autographed ticket to my collection... sigh.... Missouri---LA...Missouri...LA... i need to get out of here soon..  ¶ 12/06/2001 01:48:00 PM 0 comments

  Jurassic 5 tomorrow! woo hoo!... and damn paper due thursday.. bummer..
oh yeah, the library is fun.. if you ever find a fucking parking space.. it sucks losing a spot, cause 10 minutes later..poof! its gone, and you spend another 15 minutes finding another one... damn people and parking lots...
ok..betta start on this fresh paper..  ¶ 12/04/2001 08:11:00 PM 0 comments

  hmm.... weekend update

weezer and Jimmy eat world was great, one of the best lineups in a long time for me.
im glad my friends minna and 2hins got to enjoy them, although they weren't on the floor, i wish they were. nothign like weezer with great friends.
saturday.. well, i already kind of talked about saturday.. it was a good day... ice skating, party, sleep..
Sunday..... hmmm study all day, ate bunkass chinese foood, studied more.. passed out.....

Now, monday... i need to finish my paper.. I just got done doing community service for 4 hours! taking donations for the charity was rewarding though, it seems that community service is the only way that I can make my self feel that I am worth something...
just got done watching quan tear it up at music cafe... man, everyone one of my friends have more talent in one fingernail than I have in my whole body... nevertheless, i will take the stage sometime, with the help of my talented friends of course...
well, must get back to paper...
man, if you read this regularly, you must really think im the bees knees.. and I thank you for that..
in the extrememe case you don't already know me.. I say hello and thanks!
hit me up on Aol instant messenger Alex5642  ¶ 12/03/2001 10:18:00 PM 0 comments

  ahh..... last night was a fun night.
I went ice skating , fell on my ass many times, but I had a good time, hanging out with friends.
then, the big party at Pat's, where I conversed with many people, one of them that one person..... yeah, I still felt kind of stupid around her.. oh well, I now just want to be more social overall, i've kind of been in an antisocial mode as of late..so, i'm gonna work on it..
back to studying.. take care  ¶ 12/02/2001 05:35:00 PM 0 comments